for the Journey

i think someone should appreciate me more, but i keep my mouth shut. this has been a day where everything has gone wrong. all that is left to me is to sit outside and write against the dying of the light, until darkness or the mosquitoes force an alternative.

one day. only one more day of struggling with the world, and then i am off on my next adventure. another Journey- the heartbeat of my life. i pray that this heartbeat will return the blood to the farthest regions of my soul. new life is just waiting for the next breath. i whisper to myself, “Just breathe.”

life doesn’t have to be hard. it’s the message i want to scream to the world through my every action. i often find that i need to scream it to myself. life isn’t difficult- it simply is. the march of time continues on relentlessly, the sun rises each morning, every storm passes. in the end, there is no “life”…all else falls away, and only i remain.

the twilight deepens. even my words on the page begin to slowly fade away. this is the way of life, and in it lies the wisdom. when you are finally comfortable with yourself in the dark and in the silence, you can begin the Journey. i feel the slight tickle of song and light bubbling up from within. one more day. just breathe.